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Poster: Jerrob Hungar Date: Jan 7, 2007 4:48am
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: spiritual aspects of the GD

Thank you Ganges. Your posts (and Max's, 'I am' ) are examples of the reasons I came out of lurk mode. Your openness, your willingness to show your vulnerability speaks directly to me as I've hidden away for so long, frightened of being ridiculed and put down. Like you, acid opened doors to all levels of my existence but for me it was too much too soon and the resultant confusion led me to heroin. However, I realised that I had to make a choice, to be or not to be. So I started to try to heal myself. In my case, it was my emotions that were out of control but I couldn't find the right belief system to help me manage my emotions so I just listened to the music play. ( I remember Timothy Leary's books 'Start Your Own Religion' and 'The Politics of Ecstasy being influences.) ( Also R.D. Laing's books) (actually, a lot of books).
So I tried to develop spiritual values in my life and gradually life became less of a struggle. I got off the smackaroni, made some real friends, went back to college, got a job, fell in love with a wonderful person and have two beautiful children. I thank Jerry and Robert every day but thats not to say that life aint hard sometimes and when I'm really low thoughts of suicide do cross my mind but its not so hard to shove them aside.
I think spirituality means different things to different people. To me, it means aspiring to a higher consciousness by developing the attributes that I mentioned in my first post. Its not the same as religion as you can be spiritual without being religious and vice versa. One of the things that kept me lurking was the fear of going into blah de blah mode so thats all folks.

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Poster: ganges Date: Jan 7, 2007 11:59am
Forum: GratefulDead Subject: Re: spiritual aspects of the GD

Jerrob Hungar, thank you for sharing your story, I'm glad you found that inner strength. Sometimes we need a miracle and help comes, if we try to be open.

All the best for now.